Fifteen minutes this year

Just these fifteen minutes let me forget everything ahead,

Just let my past be the last thought to put me to bed.

Just these fifteen minutes let me not have a conflict in my mind,

Let me simply let go of all the fights I have left behind.

Just these fifteen minutes let my words search for meaning tonight,

As I look for my soul and what I have become in my own sight.

Just these fifteen minutes let me not be guilty any more,

Let me be rid of all the burdens that I drag along, as I swim for shore

Just this fifteen minutes, let the smell, the taste of yesterday forever linger in my heart,

Just keep me moving on and reminding me when and where to start.

 

Just these fifteen minutes, let there be true meaning to unfold,

As I look back upon all that has been and all that remains untold.

Just these fifteen minutes let my regrets, my anguish find absolution,

Just this once, in my past let me find my bit of inspiration.

Just this once when I know the day is no longer here to remind me all that’s left behind,

Let me simply have hope in my heart, and believe tomorrow will bring a new sunshine

Just these fifteen minutes let me remember my rhythm my song,

And just this once let me find someone to sing along,just this once.

Just these fifteen minutes even if nothing changes ahead,

Let me keep moving on, and hoping there’s a different plan for me instead.

Just these fifteen minutes let me have faith, let me believe in wishes for real,

As I look in my past, in my good and bad times, let my path reveal

Just these fifteen minutes as I tread upon my lonely footsteps tonight,

Let me just find a reason in my heart, for which I knew I put up a fight

Just these fifteen minutes as the year comes to an end and the new one begins,

Let me let go; of what’s yesterday and hope to find what remains unseen

The Human Addiction

I wonder about this human connection

I question whether it’s possible to have a human addiction

Whether on some level, we all find that; which is but different,

Somewhere, somehow just a feeling that stays dormant.

I find a different reason, to be with or without,

And yet I find no reasons for the feelings that change & the thoughts that surround.

Different choices every day, the difference we make in each other’s lives,

And often unseen, and the changes for which we seem to strive.

To be ourselves with someone, to be different and yet who we are,

To live our dreams as though it matters most; when we are far.

I pack my bags tonight; and leave out everything that matters around you,

And yet my addiction grows with days, as I can’t see to reach through.

I can’t think of a better reason to tell you why I need an explanation,

I cannot shake this feeling that you aren’t there, and yet I am addicted to this allegation.

I think of a reason whether it’s possible to be bored tonight,

With the people who mattered to me, who’s definition I fail to revive.

I choose not to look at places I was, & the people I chose,

As I find my life awakened and my day coming to a close.

I sit back in my room today and wait for my feelings to subside,

Whether I am addicted to another human; never crosses my mind.

In every way and every step of the feeling that aren’t true,

I often look for answers, one’s that no longer reaches out to you.

I wait for things to get better, to see if things are different today,

I just seem to love the addiction much more and the feeling that I’ll be “okay”.

My friend undefined . .

I fiddle with my words, my thoughts tonight,

I wonder how to put them true, how do I write

I ponder upon my past, knowing it hard to fight,

I wonder if your try the same, every single night.

I pour myself with questions, and wish for no regrets tonight,

When I look at my friends, and my past losing sight,

So hard to give up sometimes, so hard to give in,

So hard to accept that things change, always from what they have been.

I sit with my doubts, and fears and unwound change,

As I tell you things will often go by, but impressions remain

I sometimes believe that life isn't fair,

I sit with you telling you of moments that are no longer there

I am right there lost and yet sitting by your side,

I know that there are some things I can never abide,

No questions asked today, no complains to tell,

Just an old friend and friendship & an old tale

I may not be a beginning, and may not find you an end,

But all I can offer you is endless time and a wonderful friend.

A friend finds hope in the darkest of time,

And yet that best of friendship remains undefined